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Friday, December 30, 2005
hatred to hate is to avoid to neglect and to mark as VOID to see and run no, it isn't just for fun its not simple and is as troublesome as a swollen pimple but it should and will be justified however this burden won't be light are you ready for it? to start and forever in this cause remain fit? or are you just entering the emotion of hate just to find simple escape? does hate have to be where it ends? for thats no man's land to hate is to pain not just you but me too maybe hate isn't what man feels it might just be an emotional seal to show that what was once great before has now ended and will no longer to the the heavens soar yet again hate may be true for that person may have once made you terribly blue but where this hate leads you you'll have not one clue so to hate or stay to avoid or to say a simple hello to the one you once called a darling fellow to pretend as if alls just right or to stand up and fight? well it just isn't me to be fake so i'll just plunge into this sorrowful lake where from its depths hatred slowly brews... quiz
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
happiness happiness to you may just be merry making a night in a club and just some sleezy grinding coupled with a few lit up stubs happiness to me may just be a day with you relaxing in bed counting sheeps - so few maybe eventually getting laid but don't you see? happiness is not pre-determined its simple and easy to be happy but never complete external joy is nothing but just an instant where you feel ecstacy but later awake to find yourself with no clue but if it came from within it would all be so different you wouldn't need him and maybe you'll never be stern but to each his own source of joy and love still, read the above words of wisdom aren't always someone's cunning ploy Saturday, December 24, 2005
its all wrong the tree nicely dressed others in the world having so much less here we are complaining while others are actually starving we feast like kings forgetting other little yet significant things like how the boy in africa has no clothes to wear or through garbage bags he has to tear don't you think christmas is all wrong? how we glorify it with gifts and song neglecting the less that are around food scraps they wished they could have found maybe its time we stopped and thought about those through a war half-way fought for freedom and peace human rights should be the least all the hype about christmas and its feel while little kids have to steal wheres the spirit of christmas we once preached? or to where has it been leeched? to give and not recieve to love and not be loved thats what christmas actually is so give to those who need to fight to live over-rated i think a lot of things are over rated. 1) christmas 2) love 3) responsibility 4) role models 5) appriciation 6) crushes 7) scandals 8) relationships 9) intelligence 10) the world maybe thought isn't that good after all. merry christmas people. oh yah. celebrate christmas for the right reasons. not for the carols or presents. its for the giving and forgiving. Thursday, December 22, 2005
crystal all you need to know is yourself. theres no point in trying to understand or know what some else is thinking about or feels about you. form your own opinions and feelings about youself as well as the world. be it selfish or not, as long as its your idea/emotion, stick to them. you've got the copyright law for them. fear no one else. affirmations and slander please and hurt no believer. why know what others think or feel? its their ideas, let them keep it private. and gossip isn't good. i've gone for confession twice in two days, but i'm still gossiping. hahaha. maybe its just the expression of emotions about a person that i don't quite like. hence the nasty-ness. 'sometimes swearing is the only way to prove our point' - jean yong, maybe gossiping too. =D blogging or rather reading blogs is becoming quite funny. i read particular blogs daily. some to scorn at. others to laugh with. a few to gain inspiration. and others to bitch about. i'm such a jackass. well. sue me. KARMA. what goes around comes around mark. BEWARE of the words that will bite. bring it on. KARMA you mother fucking piece of shit. may you burn and rot in hell. fucking ass hole. KARMA bitch. KARMA. promises made were meant to be broken. orientation seems fun-er now. draco is fun. yes i finally remembered our bloody house name. hahaha. MUSHU *ROAR! with fire coming out* fuck the world. and wait for the world to fuck you. sit back relax and await the end. Monday, December 19, 2005
do unto others what you want others to do unto you HAHAHA. KARMA babe. KARMA! think you're smart, think again. =) i'm a real jackass. sorry world. please don't condemn me. let me condemn you. Saturday, December 17, 2005
legacy retail therapy spending money like water makes me happy but crap i'm only left with a quater absolutes of life are complicated. there can only be absolutes when you keep everything constant (CP). don't know. can't be bothered. won't be bothered. thats what i'm going to be like from now on. i don't want to say too much. and i don't want to talk too much. i just want to keep quiet. its only in solitude that one finds himself. will it work? i don't think so. go there with an open heart i will. but will others do so? pride dominates all in this group. effectiveness is really going to be questioned. i don't talk to many people. i only talk to those i love and trust. and when i say talk. i mean talk about deeper and more serious things. i can crap with you all day/night. but that won't mean i really like you. 2 faced schizo. beware. life would be a lot easier if more people hated you and those that loved you just loved you and stuck up for you and to you. wanker. Friday, December 16, 2005
blankness i think its so hard to blog what i really feel and what i really want to say anymore. i think too many people read what i write. shit. hello you're home. and i'm waiting to say hello to you. 17th midnight. YAY YAY! =D the weirdest people get together man. hahahahaha. freedom of speech nothing should be imposed ideas not leeched only creatively composed i'm tired. bye. Thursday, December 08, 2005
easier things have been sorted out to a certain extend. =) yay! off to yiss tomorrow. bloody hell. its 3am now. sian. bye. i don't feel anything. HAHAHA. MARRY ME!!! SJI love you. CHEERS _|_ Tuesday, December 06, 2005
wah lao WHAT THE FUCK. SERIOULSY WHAT THE FUCK! Sunday, December 04, 2005
love that simple? never! to love is to accept all flaws to not fear hurt or pain but to give my heart and not expect back a part to love is to like your good to not just see the good but also the bad and still love it all the same to love is to cherish you presence to not wish for another but to just fall into passion and not have a valid reason to love is to be happy to be with you and forever be merry but not forgetting the serious and still sharing the happiness to love is to be true to never lie even when you're blue but to never forget your feelings and still be truthful to love is to give to forever want my love for you to live but still being my true self and always letting you feel comfortable enough to be yourself to love is to not hide to never tell a lie but forever remember whats best for you and do it even if it will make you blue love be simple love be kind love be easy love be mine its really childish to think love is so easy, but yah. i want to be childish now. i want to claim my right to be a BIG BABY. i want to not think so much, just live for the moment and nothing else. to not go against what i've said or to break your heart in anyway. i asked just now how to break your heart. i asked so that i'll know how to NEVER break it, not to break it you cukoo bird. you're welcome. you were a great dinner date. HAHAHA. you can treat me next time. no need expensive food, anything will do. MAGGIE MEE ALSO CAN. like i said, i just want your company. i really really really love talking to you. its like talking to the lost me. i see you as a part of me that i hide from the world. i think i'll let it take over soon. or maybe the 2 parts will just become one in time to come. a merger. horizontal or vertical? haha. and as much as i hated you. i take it all back. i simply love you now. perfection has once again been found. =) pajamas party when you get back. just 2 of us. 6 to 6. HAHAHA. we'll both just die of talking. or maybe scrabble or battle ship. right. i'm going to keep my high to go high with you. HAHA. i'll let it slowly brew in me and unleash it when i'm with you!!!!!!!!! then BOOM! BANG! CRASH! AHHHH! HAHAHA! NEAH! AND ALL THE FUNNY (CUTE) SOUNDS! =D=D=D i know what i want. i just don't want it. why? FEAR. ironic. irony like you said. like you and him too. ha. friends? BALLS. i so fucking believe in KARMA now. what goes around comes around. do unto others what you want other to do unto you. you deserve whats happening. i want to tak haeran. but i can't. ha. i'm with you. i'll really miss you when you're gone. not because i like you, but because... i don't know. i just know i'll miss you. take care big baby! PS honestly, i thought this post would be a lot lot lot lot longer. but yah. i guess i'll just say what i really feel when we're next manja-ing or talking or dinnering or slaving or whatever-ing. yahyahyah. but thanks for a happy happy happy day. you're a philosopher, not so much a theorist in my eyes, why? cause i believe in what you believe in. thanks for finding that part of me. Saturday, December 03, 2005
easy/uneasy its making me feel uneasy cause things now are just so easy. Friday, December 02, 2005
yet i love her, yet i hate her. i am her friend, yet i want to be her lover. i'm happy with everything like that, yet i'm so miserable. i don't want things to change, yet i want them to. i don't know what i want, yet i do. i like her, yet i don't want to. i don't know what this is, yet i do. PRACT CRIT in this piece of writing, contrast is very much evident. the author makes use of 2 separate and conflicting emotions to show his confusion about what he is facing. however, we can see that through such confusion, the author bothers to think in a logical process. as seen from 'i don't want things to change, yet i want them to.' this evidently shows that through the thought process he has come to a conclusion that although his logical mind tells him to not be affected by emotions, his rash heart tells him the exact opposite. irony is also very much present in this piece of work as how can one acutally love and hate the same person? 'to love yet hate' are the words chosen by the author. how this becomes ironic is that to love one has to be selfless, to hate, one has to be selfish. how then is this possible? similarly, how can the author feel both joy as well as sadness at the same time? such mixed emotions and feelings show that the author is very much confused with the problem he is facing. how to interprete this piece of writing can be an unsurmountable task as it depends very much on what the reader chooses to believe the author to be. if he believes that the author is a romantic who lives by his heart, the author would take a step in the direction where everything would drastically change. this drastic change may not only affect him, but might as well affect those around him, especially the woman of his dreams. however, if the author chooses to abide by him logical mind's word, the problem he faces is somewhat less complicated. this is because he doesn't have to worry about his emotions getting in the way as well as the senario of things becoming bad is eliminated. similarly, one must also look at this piece of writing with the tone and purpose of it clearly kept in mind. the purpose of this writing may have been to express how he really feels about things to his readers. on the other hand, this writing may have be written so as to put things into perspective for him. the tone of this writing is objective and straight-forward. however, as much as the tone can be kept neutral, it is evident that the author still hopes and wishes for the impossible. however, it is also evident from his concise and simple way of writing that he is realistic and able to live with the logical choice of life. in my opinion, the author does not know what he wants in life. and therefore, he should continue writing to try and discover things for himself. however, it is evident that he cares and loves for someone a lot. but to what extend and how he loves is yet to be determined. i just hope that what happens between us doesn't happen between anyone else. i love you too much. thats why i don't like you anymore. to see your flaws yet still want to be there for you and be there with you isn't just liking to me. its loving. loving all. the good the bad, the happy the sad. its a package. but i don't want to like you. i just want to love you and let things be the way they are. things are great like that. i think you're happy. and i know i am. manja. nights. PS. i think guys are such pussys. whatever happened to the balls they once had?! Thursday, December 01, 2005
big baby i'm a liar. paranoia everyone's guilty of paranoia. its how often you're guilty of it. for some its a part of their life. for others, its just occasional. at times i really think you're too fucking paranoid. thinking too far and too deep into certain things. certain things are just the way it should be. and theres no such thing as this happened because you popped up in the picture. how do you blame someone for something like that? paranoia guards you from the outside. but attacks you from deep inside. you always look so happy and cheerful to me. but sometimes i can't help but wonder. are you? i don't know. and as much as i had wanted to make you happy. now, sometimes i just can't be bothered. sad then sad lor. like what i say or do can really cheer you up. some people just can. some people just can't. so if you can't then don't try. it'll only make you look stupid. who do you care for? interesting. as much as i want to know. i don't. HA. ATTENTION. =) so cute. i really want to just spend time with you. |
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